Ideologies

Lost in quagmire of thoughts, I sometimes wonder if double standards have become a way of life. People who claim to be practicing “Do what you preach” are the ones who imbibe double standards. And this applies in all walks of life. It’s hard to digest especially when people whom you look upto- start behaving similarly. Life cant be demystified and however hard you try to fathom, some things will still stay like the tip of iceberg. People with double standards play under the veil of “Saam-Daam-Dand-Bhed” and classify it as strategy. On the one hand they show themselves to be extremely people centric on the other- they are self centric to an extent, beyond imagination. While life is giving me multiple experiences, it is harrowing to see your “Goods” getting fraught by worldly pleasures.

The Generation Gap

Sometimes I am extremely surprised at the ideas of my parents and not because they are outdated but because it is exactment en face.  In spite of coming from orthodox backgrounds and belonging to a back in development city- its heartening to see them adopting the modern ways of life. While these modern ways relate not just to thinking, food habits, lifestyles- it is generally acceptable that the views of 2 generations can never be similar. But the case here is different. Parents who didn’t opt for risk for their own growth are going on a changed and risk path of their offsprings. While this one relates not just for careers but also for personal life- Questioning the societal norms is extremely commendable. Glad that I have both of you in life

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When i updated my status message to “I miss the missing I”- the connotations that people made out of it were different and unsolicited. Expression of state of mind can be meandering just like our thoughts. While the mysterious woman continues to bask in esoteric- some things can still be read. I here refers to the alphabet- which has gone missing with one’s identity but it doesn’t necessarily mean communion. It might be termed as arrogance or self obsession but this is what separates the rat from the rat race. When everyone is following the herd and running for ulterior motives- it is I which brings the blossom.

But what i actually meant was that the missing I was good and i don’t enjoy its presence anymore.

To write or not to...

Writing is something that no one can force upon us- not even we ourselves. You have to be feeling vehement about something to bring out the best of expression. And when i say this today- I am trying to do something just because i am missing it for quite a few days now. When there is emptiness in your mind, thoughts run just like shallow water- you can only force yourself to write-  to please your craving pen and the readers. And yet this is a different feeling since you are pitted against the wall. Not sure how regular columnists do it- providing regular feed of their own inscriptions. Either they are extremely vocal about trivial issues or the power of money is more exciting- not sure about the motivations though.

Stains

Stains as described by Manjula Padmanabhan is a true to life depiction of the plight of a girl caught imbalanced between gender and race discrimination. How does the presence of a blotch at one place brings in differences- the short story continues to unravel. Barely away from the normal life scenarios- it has a befitting description of not just what every woman goes through but also describes the mentality of women being unflinchingly cruel to other womenfolk- just to make them feel, what they underwent in their hey days. The inability of men to understand the winds of change in their partner’s mood when PMSing and  there also is a subdued reference to their adjustment with the fact that women are definitely superior in this regard. While it is easier for people to comment that they change as per the requirment of the situation but highly difficult to embrace change in totality and live up to the changing expectations from all facets. Worth a read!!

Worth Calculating

Sometimes I wonder- have i overstayed my welcome? Have i  given it a bigger part and time of my life than required and was it worth it? When you see things diminishing in front of you and if you still stay there watching- isn’t that denigration of your own self? Should it be named as complacency or risk aversion? Either ways if the outcome is not good as it should have been- its time to revisit. If relationships are touching the baseline, when you start questioning your own intents and actions- its time up - for staying as a guest. It’s in fact a signal to go back to being a vagabond and try again the taste of life, firsthand and learn from its discoveries.



Pain - As experienced

Have we ever thought that pain would be sweet and I do not mean Orgasmic Pain. When do deadly throngs of pain become cakewalk to handle?  It is when you give into the pain and treat it as a living thing with a purpose- when you let it do its Karma defying what it brings to you. When we come to terms with idea of pain- it becomes easier to handle. It is then that you have actually conquered pain and made it your servant. Sometimes the pain is worth bearing for the fruit it brings. Pain is not malicious- it is just something which breaks free from shackles after long seize. If we decide to look at its structure we can definitely disarm pain with attention. Don’t resent it, just try to live with it and celebrate it- After all its all in our mind.