I might not come across as an emotional wreck and wouldn’t even classify into lower rungs of this category but when it comes to felt emotions i can be a challenge to surpass.
A chapter of my life- a dear friend who had only 1 relation with me- friendship and what i had towards him – Friendship for convenience- who could be around in despair, the one to celebrate good times and a companion for solace in college days. Nothing more nothing less. Time became different and convenience got well discovered when a white beauty enters his life. As anticipated our distances became like horizons when the shower of love fell on his lap. Calls and meetings became rainbows. But this is one side of the story- what i was not aware of was the fact that this is going in background and i am averse to all of it. All what was visible to others was opaque to me probably because i wanted to hear it from the horses mouth.
But the horse came to me only when a sudden realisation occurred and realities of relationship started sinking in. But this sudden confession which didn’t come as a shock rose emotions which i had not warranted of. The feeling of losing a friend and being the last one to know was the worst i have experienced. Why did i loose my salty water- I still cant fathom and then citing nostalgia as a reason to all those who had never seen me crying....
Their relationship is no more tied with right strings- he has come to me for pacification but i fail to understand all of it.............................. When i go back and think- It really hurts and i don’t know why.
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