Don’t know what is it that i have lost, may be it’s me that i have lost

Something inside me has changed? And the change looks huge and eternal. In the race to conform, i feel like having lost my own identity. While the escape routes are abundant and directions to choose are plenty- there is something which wants to go back to times of utopia, when i was me- with  nothing more, nothing less. The girl who was known for 1 thing, can’t find if that was ever a part of her life in an entwined manner. Its difficult to come to terms with the new me and believe if things can take a turn to bring me back to my self.