Revisiting Old Places

I just loved the way this phrase was bejeweled in one of the recent flicks. While the intent with which it was used is sea different in the way which I am referring to. It was after 3 + long years that yesterday I revisited some of the old spots which were like a heavenly abode with few of the important members in my life at that point of time. The familiarity of places, the known fragrances, the comfort of friendship- all entwined in one. What was the best feeling was amidst the aesthetic change the vibes harbor the same areas, people have same warmth and what only is missed is the loved ones not being there to relive the moment or deliberately repeat it together. 

Rare Breed

It’s a mighty feeling when someone walks up to you and tells you that you are one of those rare breeds whom they would want to have a part of their life. It feels just great when you are told that “You are loved for being You”- no changes required. Keeping all professional talks aside- it is a beautiful compliment to receive. Good to have people around who respect and infact admire your individuality and the non conformance to the world. People who appreciate your nature’s nuances trying to assimilate them in theirs, seeing life infused in them when you start talking. How many people do we actually have, who let you talk about yourself- without you boasting ? Pretty formidable to find such people. Glad to have you around….

Couples with Kids

We see people around, who can boast a lot about almost everything about themselves. More than that is a tendency among couples, who have kids. They incessantly keep giving sermons on how their kid is the best, has best of brains, agility, qualities of a superstar. I hate being part of such talks, after all every individual is different, so why bore people with your words. This especially happens, when we go as visitors to their places and instead of regular chit chat, it’s a monologue which the couple gets into- often asking their kids to comply with their bolsterings and keep up the pride. Not being cognizant of the fact that this puts off the conversation and if the other party themselves have a kid, it starts an unending game of proving themselves better.

Muft Muft Muft

I believe this is a famous dialogue from an acclaimed film. But I mean it differently.  After a long time, I have taken a break from the usual busy ness of mine and some people have taken it as an opportunity to take things ahead. Enjoying the company is good but making it as a means get into something else is despicable. They turn opportunists and this is clearly visible in all their attempts- asking for more time, movies together, get outs together. While I am very clear that this is not what I want, how do I make them understand because somewhere they are people known to me?

And I don’t want to see relationships breaking because of replications.

Assets that become Liabilities

How many of us have made such assets which have become liabilities in our life or say have been endowed with assets that become liabilities? While the usage of word assets/liabilities clearly demarcates the purpose, that an item is supposed to serve- sometimes it doesn’t hold true. What we undertook as an asset, costs us so much of investment of our health, effort, time and money over a period of time, that we start relegating it. And with relegation comes, disinterest, making it feel inferior. While it is not right treating anything with indignation- but it happens.  Does it not happen similarly to people, who fail to live up to the name and expectations. May be it’s a way of life.

Muster Courage

I have always been supported by people, in my endeavours. Support is good but that made me little wary of risk taking. I still needed to think about doing it on my own. Finally it started pricking my valour and I mustered courage to pull it off on my own. What a beautiful feeling it was!!!! It replenished my confidence, bolstered my self, made me celebrate and do something which I was not comfortable with.

Memories

People ask me, why do I remember dates- and specially if they are bad? While remembering dates is something which I have been bestowed with- it is something to do with remembering some events of importance in your life, which affected you, gave you lessons and taught you to act/react. These events keep reminding of how unexpected can life be and with just one moment- new things blossom or crumble. Some chance meetings- which have brought in most important persons in my life, some events which took away assets of my life.

Is it right to make other’s a part of your memory? To some extent if you know that it will be taken it the right stride but otherwise it might pinch another person. And i need to be watchful now.

The Bond

The bond which we shared was different. How it developed- was probably need of a friend. The cat and mouse games we played were funny. The acts of selflessness- enjoyable. And then came the revelation- was it good? Not too sure. Probably yes, but what it brought with itself was agony, change in behaviour and a feeling of uncertainty- if this is how things were ought to be. Then came a period a reconciliation. Was the matter settled- looked like but did it actually settle- Only superficially. In the hearts of hearts, we have taken different ways, acceptability has become little less and conversations harp on our scope of interjection. Nothing more, nothing less- More of a formality than anything else.

Withering Relationships

When I look back to find out who all are walking with me, I am surprised!!.  The numbers which were huge earlier, have now diminished. People with whom conversations were unending at one point of time, are hardly spoken with. Life has changed, so do I and so do all of them. It will change so drastically was unfathomed and doesn’t leave good taste in the mouth.