Disillusioned!!!

I have never ever been like this before. I have always been a strong headed and extremely focused one. High on self confidence and clear about my own actions. 

Don’t know what has happened? Disillusioned with so many things running on my mind. Not clear as to what i want and what i want to do. Losing my patience and calm demeanour at all times. I have never been a supporter of the “Forest Gump” but this is what is happening to me unwillingly. Every time i quiz myself with questions- without being able to put my finger on the right answers. Is it because i fear fathoming and envisaging the future for myself or is it sheer indifference? The effort at bringing entropy within is only bringing self doubt and self relegation- not helping at all. Not sure what to do and whom to believe. Is there a conflict which is limiting me or is it that i am not able to look at things as they are? While there are people who are helping me out in carving out my real self which is rusted and dusted, i still need to reclaim myself. May be i need help or may be just a break from the mundane. And i am still not sure about it.

I hate being the different personality altogether...